Birthday Book Haul 2017

Apologies for the hiatus. It’s been a bit of a crazy month. My birthday was this month so I obviously bought myself some books.

I got The Chemist from my library’s outlet store. The top four books were from Book Outlet. Tiny Pretty Things, The Merciless 2, Get Even, & Partials. The rest came from my local used book store–all of these were about $4 because I took in some old books for store credit.  Two Animorphs, Just After Sunset, Dead White, The Unwelcomed Child, The Snow, Surrogate Child, A Gift of Magic, and Summer of Fear (which I already had a copy of but I liked this cover better and am planning to send the other to someone).


I got the Goosebumps book from Ebay so I can do the Goosebumps-along that Richard @ Richard’s Book Nook is hosting again this year. Join us! This Star Won’t Go Out, All the Light That We Cannot See, and Dumplin’ came from my local Goodwill.

So that’s a total of 18 books for my birthday, which is perfect since it landed on the 18th! Complete coincidence!


I took in about 15 books for store credit so at least I got rid of some of my collection. I probably won’t read any of these this year except for the Goosebumps book. Still, I feel like I’ve done better with book buying this year than I did in 2016.


What books have you bought lately?



Books in June 2017

For 2017, I have challenged myself to read 80 books. In June, I read five.


New Favorite: Gwendy’s Button Box by Stephen King & Richard Chizmar

Classic: The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain

Old Favorites (Re-Reads): My Sweet Audrina by V.C. Andrews

June was a slower reading month but I still enjoyed everything I read. Hoping to get a little more read next month. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince was a re-read but since it was my least favorite of the series (still gave it 4 stars), I decided it didn’t count as a favorite.


My new favorite read for June … and also for 2017 so far. It was hard to put down!

Also ❤

My classic read for the month. I enjoyed this one even more than Tom Sawyer.

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince is my least favorite of the series so far but I still enjoyed it.


And My Sweet Audrina managed to make me love it even more this time around. It’s one seriously messed up story with even more messed up characters, but I can’t help it. I love it!

So what did you read in June and what were your favorites? How many books are you tackling for 2017?


Books in May 2017

For 2017, I have challenged myself to read 80 books. In May, I read six.


New Favorite: The Forbidden Wish by Jessica Khoury

Classic: Dandelion Wine by Ray Bradbury

Old Favorites (Re-Reads): Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix by J.K. Rowling & Web of Dreams by V.C. Andrews.

I had a great reading month. I enjoyed everything I read so I decided not to pick a least liked for this month.



My new favorite read for May.

My classic read for the month.

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix is my favorite of the series so far. It was my favorite out of all of them years ago so I guess we’ll see if that is still true over the next few months!

Web of Dreams is definitely one of my favorite ghostwritten VCA books. I did a recap for it here.

So what did you read in May and what were your favorites? How many books are you tackling for 2017?


VCA Recaps: Web of Dreams Part 5 (Final)

Just like in my previous VCA recaps, these will be full of SPOILERS so do not continue if you do not want to be spoiled/haven’t read it. Thank you!


Part 1 here.

This recap will cover Chapters 18—Epilogue.

Leigh bathes, dresses, and joins everyone for dinner. She is obviously not feeling it but of course Jillian ignores her lack of enthusiasm and relishes in slamming some of the dieters she met at her “wonder spa.”

Jillian tells Leigh that she has some of the things from Switzerland in another room and that she wants her to see them. Tony pulls Leigh back for a moment. He tells her that he doesn’t harbor any resentment toward her for what she said to Jillian and how they both understand how Leigh is “literally exploding into womanhood.”

Leigh tells him that eventually her mother will believe her. Poor thing. Tony goes on about teenage girls, blah blah blah. Leigh calls him despicable and goes to see her mother’s things. Of course Jillian continues to drone on about the stupid spa. Leigh attempts to talk to her mother again but gives up when Jillian starts to complain about her “starting all that again.” Jillian is even worse than Tony.

Jillian gives Leigh a watch that Leigh couldn’t care less about. Leigh continues to attempt to talk to her mother but eventually gives up and retreats into herself. She even ignores Jennifer and Joshua’s phone calls. Leigh begins to find solitude in nature.

Jillian returns to her social life and Tony keeps his distance from Leigh. In July he goes off to Europe. When Cleave calls, Leigh basically begs him to come see her, and without Mildred. Of course Cleave can’t leave his precious Mildred. I’m pretty sure he knows the truth about Leigh’s paternity somehow. Maybe Jillian told him so Leigh would have no one.

Still, Leigh looks forward to seeing her father even with Mildred only to get stood up—there’s an emergency on one of the liners. She runs up to her room and starts feeling bad. In the morning she throws up and realizes with horror that she’s missed her period. She knows she’s pregnant.

She waits a few more days but the sickness doesn’t go away. Finally she goes to Jillian to tell her the news, sure that it will make her believe her this time! Poor Leigh. Jillian seems skeptical at first and then blames Leigh for seducing her husband.

Jillian insists that Leigh must be jealous of her and that she tried so hard to bring her up right, and that GOOD GIRLS DON’T GO ALL THE WAY! Just like Jillian didn’t, right? She’s such a hypocrite! Leigh finally calls her out on it too, revealing that she overheard Jana discussing Leigh’s real father.

Of course Jillian refuses to confess to it.

“How dare you shout at me like this! I’m your mother.”

“No, you’re not. I have no mother and I have no father. You thought you could have it all, didn’t you? Only the finest! A handsome young husband, a luxurious estate, a designer wardrobe, and a SPECIALLY SELECTED MISTRESS FOR YOUR OWN HUSBAND!”

Damn, girl. She’s not finished though.

“Tell me, Momma, when did you first get the idea? On your honeymoon? When you returned to Farthy? When did you realize that your beauty wouldn’t last forever and would start FADING! That’s right, fading! With each passing day you grow older and older, Momma. But you’ve always known that, deep in your heart of hearts. I CAN’T STAND YOU ANYMORE! You don’t care about anything but yourself and your precious face. Well let me tell you something, Jillian Tatterton, the game is OVER! You’re going to be a GRANDMOTHER and the only person you have to blame is YOURSELF!”

Ah, I think Jillian’s revulsion to the word “grandmother” back in earlier books may have something to do with Leigh finally calling her out on her shit.

These are the last words Leigh says to Jillian as she returns to her suite and starts packing. She also takes Angel with her. Leigh decides that she’ll go to her grandmother since she knows what Jillian is really like. She also takes two hundred dollars from Tony’s office. Really, it’s the least he can do.

She goes outside to find Miles polishing the car and pretends that she has an appointment and that Jillian must have forgotten to notify anyone. Before they can leave, Leigh spots Troy out with his nurse and knows she must say goodbye.

They are just on their way back from the beach and Troy is excited to show Leigh a huge conch shell he found. Leigh tells him that she has to leave and won’t be back for a while. She promises that somehow, someway, she’ll be back. While this isn’t exactly true, I suppose Heaven returning to Farthy later on sort of fulfills her promise.

Troy insists that Leigh take the shell with her. Miles drops Leigh off at the train station and she discovers the train will have to make a stop in Atlanta before it goes all the way to Texas. She takes the train right away.

The next day the train stops in Atlanta and Leigh stays at the station counting what little money she has left. Suddenly someone says that they bet they can turn one of her dollars into a five-dollar-bill. She turns and sees a young man, around seventeen or so. Luke Thomas Casteel.

Leigh is somewhat wary but lets him have one of her bills. She watches, amazed, as he turns it into a five-dollar-bill. He says he figures she needed it from the way she was counting her money. When she says she can’t take money from a stranger, he introduces himself.

The two get to talking and Leigh learns that Luke has a part-time job at the local circus. She also tells him the surface details of where she is from and where she is going. When he realizes Leigh means to stay at the station and has no where to go, he invites her to go to the circus with him.

She accepts and they have a good time. It’s almost like a first date. Luke also becomes more self conscious when Leigh questions him about drinking beer. Luke gives Leigh a quick kiss on the lips. After finishing a show, Leigh realizes that she is going to miss her train.

Luke tries his best to get her to the station on time but they still miss it. When he suggests she call her grandmother to let her know she will be late, Leigh breaks down crying and tells him the real reason she’s running away. Luke acts way more upset about it than Jillian’s pinky finger.

He rents her a motel room for the night with two beds and stays when she insists he enjoy the room as well. Luke plans to take her to the station in the morning. Leigh has a nightmare and Luke comforts her. They end up falling asleep in each other’s arms and Luke tells her that he wants to take care of her.

In the morning Luke insists that he meant what he said last night and asks her to marry him. While I do think Luke and Leigh’s relationship so far as been cute, this seems a bit drastic, even given Leigh’s situation. Still, this is the best version of Luke in all of the books.

Luke and Leigh go to the courthouse to get married with most of the circus people there as witnesses. Everyone seems happy about the marriage except for the fortune teller, who looks worried as Luke and Leigh drive away afterward.

Irony of ironies, Luke is the one to give Heaven her full name and he suggests it as he takes Leigh to the Willies. They stop for food and Leigh gets onto Luke about drinking again. She also sends her mother a postcard telling her that she has married Luke. She also says she hopes Jillian is happy (sincerely) and that Jillian will wish the same to her.

Luke explains about the rich people of Winnerow when they pass by the town. Leigh is shocked by the cabin that Luke finally arrives at and meets a younger Annie and Toby Casteel. Annie seems unsure about Leigh and her “softness.”

Everyone has a good laugh at Leigh’s reaction to an outhouse and Luke promises to build her a really nice one. He also promises that soon they will have their own home.

Leigh learns to adjust to life in the Willies and finds Annie to be very easy to talk to as she helps her around the house. Annie and Toby insist on Luke and Leigh having the bed because “all Casteels are made in beds” but Luke tells Leigh that they can wait until the baby has come. Luke really does seem to love her.

Luke’s drinking continues to be somewhat of a problem. Leigh considers getting money from her trust or reaching out to her dad for help but Luke has strong pride and insists that he will make their dreams come true without any help.

When Luke first takes Leigh to church, she sees how the townspeople treat them and pulls Luke to the front, a bold move that pleases Annie very much afterwards.

They all go to a party after and Leigh reflects on how it’s even better than her birthday party because everyone seems to be happy with one another. She notices Sarah Williams, Luke’s future wife, dancing with him and starts to get jealous. Luke insists that he only has eyes for her. We know that’s not true considering Sarah gave birth to Tom only a few months after Heaven arrived.

On Christmas Eve, Luke gives Leigh a wedding dress and veil for Angel. The weather is beginning to get colder. In February, Luke and Leigh are on one of their nightly walks when she starts to feel Heaven kick. She also feels some pain but is afraid to worry Luke.

Leigh tells him that she thinks it won’t be much longer and gets a good glimpse of the star studded night sky so she can “feel as if she’s falling asleep in Heaven” later. Foreshadowing…

That seems to be the last of Leigh’s logbook minus a letter from a private eye that Tony had hired who tells him that Leigh was found to be living in West Virginia and that she died in childbirth. He mentions that the baby, a girl, lived.

Which is a total plot hole unless Tony wanted his daughter to fall in love with his little brother? That seems too messed up even for Tony. Or did Jillian somehow get a hold of the letter and hide it from him?

Luke Casteel Jr. calls to Annie and she tells him about how she has been reading her grandmother’s journal. She imagines she is hearing Troy calling for Leigh and also the sound of Chopin as she and Luke leave Farthinggale Manor.

Overall I loved this one, though I feel like the whole discovery of the logbook makes little sense, causes plot holes, and honestly would have been better left out. You don’t have to have a journal to tell your story and I don’t believe a 12-13 year old would have left such a detailed account anyway. Still, loved it. My third favorite in the series.

I hope you have enjoyed this recap. Since the V.C. Andrews Project has already done a recap of My Sweet Audrina, I will probably skip doing that one though I may do one for the new sequel, Whitefern, which I hear is terrible. But I guess we’ll see!





VCA Recaps: Web of Dreams Part 4

Just like in my previous VCA recaps, these will be full of SPOILERS so do not continue if you do not want to be spoiled/haven’t read it. Thank you!


Part 1 here.

This recap will cover Chapters 16—18.

Jillian goes overboard for Leigh’s 13th birthday party, wanting to impress Leigh’s friends from Winterhaven. Leigh only invites the girls who are still friendly with her, not caring when the others resent her even more. She also invites Joshua and William.

The day of the party arrives and it sounds pretty snazzy. Five piece band, caviar, momentos for guests, and a movie in the private theater that hasn’t even been released yet.

Leigh is annoyed when Jillian seems to brush off Joshua when she introduces him so she does it twice. And of course Jillian still doesn’t give a shit. Leigh shows Joshua her room and “Angel.” She promises to take him to see the English maze and cottage where she modeled later on.

During the movie, Leigh and Joshua sneak away to the maze and then out to the cottage. Leigh is disappointed to see that it is still set up like it was when she was modeling and has to cover a revealing painting of her that Tony did, one that seems new.

Leigh and Joshua end up making out on the couch. Sadly she keeps envisioning Tony’s hands on her so they have to stop. Just as Leigh is reassuring Joshua that it isn’t his fault, Tony bursts in and starts yelling at them.

Joshua is terrified and runs right out. Tony tells Leigh that he won’t tell Jillian but wants to talk about it later. Leigh agrees as she hurries to join Joshua. When they return to the movie, Jennifer and William are making out. Joshua seems very embarrassed about the cottage incident.

He is worried about Tony when he and Leigh part ways. After all of the guests have left, Leigh gets a package from her father (and Mildred). It ends up being a ballet dancer music box. Hmmm, is this a shout out to Flowers in the Attic, maybe?

Tony comes to her room as she is watching the dancer spin and thinking back to other birthdays with her father, happier ones. He is very disheveled. He tries to make small talk before he apologizes for scaring her at the cottage earlier. He also scolds her for leaving during the movie and that he didn’t want Joshua to take advantage of her.

When Leigh protests that Joshua isn’t like that, Tony says that Jillian wants him to help her protect and take care of Leigh. Tony then launches into how Leigh has a power over men just like her mother does. He even takes puts his hand over her breast and Leigh realizes that he is touching her just like Joshua did. She begins to wonder if he was watching them before he came into the cottage.

Tony tells Leigh that she must understand her powers and that she must permit him to let him help her. Leigh, unsure of what to say, tells him that she appreciates his concern for her. When he spots Angel, he talks about how he has captured Leigh’s beauty in it.

Leigh asks him if he is planning another doll and about the painting she saw in the cottage but he assures her it’s old. She isn’t so sure. When she asks him why the cottage is still set up like it was when she was modeling, he says he hadn’t gotten around to it but also likes going back to revel in the time they spent together, which is why he was so upset that she took a “stranger” there.

He pleads with her to ask before bringing anyone else to the cottage in the future. Once he leaves, Leigh calls Joshua to let him know that they didn’t do anything wrong. Afterward, Leigh falls asleep with Angel in her arms.

Jillian finally permits Leigh to stay at Winterhaven during more of the weekends so she can do more with Joshua, Jennifer, and William. Marie and the “special club” soften enough to where they are all talking again.

The portrait dolls become a quick success once they are released, all of the Winterhaven girls wanting their own. Tony does a lot of traveling in the winter. Cleave continues to disappoint Leigh. Tony puts a share of the profits off of the dolls into a trust for her.

In late May Jillian announces she is going a wonder spa in Switzerland to lose the rest of her weight (the measly four pounds?). Leigh is happy that she is allowed to stay at Winterhaven until the end of the school year.

Summer arrives and Leigh returns to Farthy. She and Tony have their first real argument over her not being allowed to invite any friends over until her mother is back. She even leaves the table during dinner and runs up to her room to make her point. Tony claims he doesn’t want to chaperone but I feel he has a more sinister reason for keeping her isolated from her friends.

Leigh begins to feel depressed over not being able to have a normal life. When she looks out of her window and sees Tony heading for the cottage, she becomes curious and decides to go see what he’s doing.

She quietly follows him and peeks into one of the windows of the cottage. The painting she covered is uncovered again and this time Tony has painted himself naked next to the naked portrait of Leigh. She is shocked when he emerges from another room completely naked.

Leigh is pretty upset when she reaches her room again. She is so upset that she takes a bath to feel less dirty. Afterward, she crawls into bed to sleep. She wakes up shortly later to the sound of heavy breathing in the darkness and suddenly sees Tony standing there still naked, staring down at her.

She tries to snap him out of it with questions about his presence there but he wants to “show her, teach her.” The scene is a little more detailed and lengthy than I care for so long story short, the bastard rapes her. He also calls her his portrait doll.

Once he is gone, she hugs Angel to her and returns to sleep. In the morning she wonders if last night was a nightmare but concludes that it wasn’t. Troy later comes in saying that she had promised to go with him on the beach later.

Leigh has little choice but to go down for breakfast. Tony acts like nothing has changed and suggests he may join her and Troy on their walk. Leigh gets upset enough that Troy’s nurse notices but Tony brushes it off and Leigh doesn’t want to actually say what happened out loud in front of Troy and his nurse.

She and Troy go on the beach and end up discussing clouds. Troy is worries about the wind blowing them away but Leigh promises it won’t. Thankfully Tony stays away.

When it becomes dark, Leigh becomes afraid because her bedroom doors don’t have locks. So she decides to go sleep in the only suite that has them—her mother’s room. To feel closer to her mother, she wears one of her nightgowns and sprays some of her jasmine perfume on before going to sleep.

Of course Tony has a key and he confuses Leigh with Jillian at first but when he realizes it’s Leigh, he assumes that she wants to be her mother and rapes her again. But before that happens, Leigh also tells him her mother is lying about her age, the only thing that would hurt her mother, but Tony says he already knows—that he looked into her past after he’d married her.

He is upset that Jillian betrayed him like that. I guess in a way he takes out his anger out on poor Leigh. Which is probably how this started to begin with. Though Tony also seems like he may have been off kilter from the very beginning.

In the morning Leigh returns to her own suite and tells her maid she is ill. She has little appetite when food is brought to her and stays in bed all day. Who can blame her? Jillian later returns and goes right to Leigh’s room because of how worried everyone is and gets angry with her for daring to get sick on her arrival!

It’s all about Jillian in Jillian’s world!

Leigh tries to tell her mother what happened with Tony. Jillian says that Tony told her that Leigh was making advances toward him. He also told her about Leigh pretending to be her in her suite. Leigh is frustrated when she realizes her mother isn’t going to believe her.

She realizes that even though her mother will get half of Tony’s wealth if they divorce, she won’t have her status quo being his wife and that’s what her mother really cares about. Jillian gets angry that Leigh told Tony that she lied about her age to him and doesn’t believe that he already knew. Jillian feels SO betrayed.

Jillian blames Leigh’s behavior on being a woman, on posing nude for Tony, for him being so handsome and available while she was away. She tells Leigh that she will have to learn to control her fantasies and drives.

She also insists that Leigh bathe, dress, and come down for dinner.  When she leaves, Leigh turns to Angel and cries that she wishes the doll could talk so she could tell Jillian as the doll is the only witness. But then she smartly comes to the conclusion that even if she could, her mother still wouldn’t believe her.

A lot happened in those two chapters so I’m going to end it here. I’ll probably finish up the rest of the book in the next recap! I’ve finished the book by now but I did really enjoy it, though it is very depressing and hard to read at times. Poor Leigh!

Next, Leigh discovers something terrible enough that she is sure her mother will have to believe her about Tony!






VCA Recaps: Web of Dreams Part 3

Just like in my previous VCA recaps, these will be full of SPOILERS so do not continue if you do not want to be spoiled/haven’t read it. Thank you!


Part 1 here.

This recap will cover Chapters 11-16.

Tony takes Leigh to her new private school, Winterhaven. When she is surprised at just how much he knows about the girls only school, Tony reveals that he once knew a girl who went there who later died in a car accident. Jillian and Leigh both remind him of her. Even though he claims he didn’t know her for very long, it seems like her death really took a toll on him.

Once at Winterhaven, Leigh takes to her roommate, Jennifer Longstone, right away. When she explains how Tony came to be her stepfather, she learns that Jennifer’s father passed away. The rules at Winterhaven are strict but Leigh soon discovers that all of the girls find ways around them.

Because of Jennifer, Leigh is accepted by the most popular girls right away and is invited to join them later on for a secret party in the room of the leader, Marie. However, when Tony sends her a rose for her table that evening at dinner, the divorce between her parents come out and everyone but Jennifer shuns Leigh for it.

Even though Marie has told Leigh that she has “cancelled” the party, Leigh knows better. She talks Jennifer into crashing it. When Leigh calls the girls out for their behavior, Marie agrees that they haven’t been very nice and invites them both to stay.

A few days later Cleave comes by and takes Leigh out to dinner. She is saddened when he breaks the news that he will be gone for a while in Europe. When she returns to Winterhaven, she tells Jennifer only the good things but silently cries herself to sleep afterward.

Leigh returns to Farthy that weekend. She asks her mother if she can have friends over but Jillian begs her to wait. Time passes and Leigh finds most of her weekends being spent with Tony. Troy is constantly sick, looking weaker and weaker.

Cleave sends Leigh postcards and letters regularly through the winter and spring but after that, they are slower to arrive. Leigh becomes suspicious when he begins to mention a woman named Mildred Pierce in his letters. She begins to worry that she is losing her father to Mildred.

Tony leaves to spend some time in Europe. The school year ends for the summer and Leigh manages to get Jillian to allow Jennifer to spend a few days at Farthy. Jennifer seems fascinated by Jillian but later confesses to Leigh that she is upset about her own mother, who is dating her dead father’s best friend. Leigh tells her about Mildred Pierce.

Tony returns from his trip with a new idea that Jillian loves—he wants to make portrait dolls for his company. Jillian and he both agree that Leigh should be the first model and face for the advertising. When she learns that she will have to pose nude, Leigh is unsure about posing for Tony but Jillian loses patience with her and pressures her into it.

One morning Leigh’s modeling sessions begin. Tony takes her out to the cottage so they have a quiet place to work. At first the modeling goes okay while Leigh has her clothes on. Then Tony gets creepy.

“This drawing is like the first stages in the making of a baby…seeds in my imagination merge with reality and take form, just the way man’s seed attaches itself to a woman’s egg and begins the creation of a newborn baby. You and I, we’re giving birth to something beautiful here, together.”


After Tony tells her he was just speaking in metaphors, he asks Leigh if she’s ever had a boyfriend. Of course she hasn’t, though Tony doesn’t seem too convinced. He then asks her if she has ever french-kissed or know what it means. Very fatherly questions.

Then he has her take her blouse off while she’s facing away from him so he can sketch the lines in her shoulders and back. He unclasps her bra, too. He drapes a white sheet around her shoulders and they have lunch afterwards. May I remind you that she’s still twelve?

Tony proceeds to ask more creepy questions like if she has ever seen a boy naked. He also reveals at how much Jillian is driving him insane with her modesty and vanity.

They return to work. He later complains that something is off and that he needs to “see things clearer with his eyes closed.” Leigh is confused until he comes over and starts touching her. Inappropriately. He returns to his canvas and works with a frenzy.

When Leigh is invited to look at the canvas, she is shocked at how her body looks more mature like her mother’s. Tony tells her that it’s a work of art.

“Half of it is in the artist’s mind. That’s why it was so important for me to touch you, too. I hope you understand, Leigh.”

Poor Leigh is so confused.

She later encounters Troy, who tells her that he will never stop being sick and won’t live as long as anyone else because he overheard the doctor pretty much say so. That better explains adult Troy.

Leigh tells him that can’t be true because she needs someone to be her little stepbrother, an idea that cheers him. Little Troy is so adorable.

The next morning Leigh goes to see Jillian to voice her concerns over Tony’s touching her but of course Jillian isn’t there. She’s spent the night with friends in Boston, something that annoys Tony. They return to the cottage for another day of work.

He basically does the same things as the day before regarding the touching, though this time it’s her rear side. He also says things that both flatter and embarrass her. He’s grooming her. Yuck.

When Jillian finally returns, Leigh tells her about her concerns but of course they are waved off. Leigh is made to feel immature as Jillian makes excuses for Tony’s behavior. Jillian claims that he is just being an artist. She loves the idea of Tony combining Leigh and Jillian in his sketches because it’s proof of just how obsessed he is with her.

Dear. Lord.

More modeling sessions but at least the modeling has gone from sketches and paintings to a sculpture. When Leigh goes back to the house, her mother is there with a friend. Leigh kind of loses it and is later reprimanded for embarrassing Jillian. Because how dare Leigh have feelings.

Cleave arrives in Boston and Leigh is excited. She goes to have lunch with him but is surprised to find that he isn’t alone—Mildred Pierce is with him. Mildred is nothing at all like Jillian, which should be good, but she comes off as cold.

Leigh makes small talk when what she really wants to do is tell Cleave what is really happening but of course she’s not going to do it in front of a woman she’s just met. And Cleave pretty much insists that Leigh can say anything she has to say to him in front of Mildred too. Then he drops a bomb—he and Mildred got married.

Cleave is getting almost as bad as Jillian when it comes to ignoring his daughter’s feelings. She’s understandably upset and hides it well for a while. Leigh begins to feel like she’s being pushed away from her father. She finally has enough when Mildred tries to suggest the London broil when the time comes to order.

Leigh tells Mildred that she hates London broil, that she hates being here, and that she hates her. Then she flees out to the car, ordering Miles to drive her back to Farthy. When she returns she cries in front of Troy, who tries to cheer her up.

Cleave later calls to apologize for how lunch went but keeps inserting Mildred into the conversation, which is not the way to go. Leigh finally tells him that she is modeling for a Tatterton Toy portrait doll but doesn’t go into details. She focuses on how important it is instead, trying to hurt him.

When he asks if she would live to have dinner with them that night, to try again, Leigh tells him that she has to go to sleep early for the modeling. Later Leigh tells Jillian about Mildred and doesn’t hesitate in saying bad things about her.

Leigh casually tells Jillian that she mentioned the modeling to her father and her mother seems to get nervous until she realizes he doesn’t know about the touching. Leigh begins to feel like her mother is spinning a web around her.

She heads to the cottage in the morning where Tony confesses that he knows things didn’t go well with Leigh and her father because Miles basically has a big mouth. Leigh finally gets to see the model of the doll and is shocked at how mature and detailed the genital areas are. She refuses to let Tony use it with her face on it. He gets mad about that but agrees to fix it. Heaven has definitely inherited some of her spirit.

During the end of summer, Tony does a lot of traveling and Leigh can’t wait to get back to Winterhaven. Finally she is back and Jennifer reveals that her mother remarried. Leigh tells her about modeling for the portrait doll, including how she posed nude. She leaves out the touching parts, though.

Jennifer also tells Leigh about William Matthews, a boy she has been seeing for the last week of summer. He apparently goes to Allandale, the private boy school that does events with Winterhaven. She mentions that William has a roommate named Joshua John Bennington and how she’s told him about Leigh.

Leigh is a bit embarrassed by this. Jennifer confides in how it felt to kiss William. Leigh can’t help but think of the way Tony touched her and silently questions again how her mother could be okay with it.

There’s an upcoming dance with the boys at Allandale. Jennifer is very excited about it and Leigh is nervous. She gets Leigh to talk to Josh over the phone. The dance arrives and Jennifer introduces Leigh to William and Joshua. The other girls in the “special club” seem betrayed that Jennifer and Leigh already know the boys and confront them about it in the bathroom. They are shunned afterwards.

Jennifer and Leigh have a good time with their dates though. Joshua kisses Leigh at the end of the night. When Leigh and Jennifer return to their room, they find a note on their door telling them to keep their secrets and selves away from the rest of the others.

Their beds have also been soaked with toilet water. Instead of being upset, Leigh is happy because they had a great time. To stick it to the “special club”, they shout about it in the hallway.

Life is different without the special club but Leigh and Jennifer manage just fine, especially now that they have boyfriends. When Leigh visits Farthy, her mother complains about being unable to lose four pounds.

One night Leigh asks her mother if she can have a birthday party and invite some friends over. She is surprised when Jillian begins planning an extravagant party for her. When the family goes out to celebrate Leigh’s birthday privately, she gets a golden locket from Troy.

Later on that evening Tony brings her a present. Leigh already knows it’s the portrait doll because Jillian already blabbed about it but she is still stunned by it. The doll also has a locket, except the inscription on the back is from Tony, in tiny letters.

Leigh is already in love with the doll. Even Jillian is impressed with it. That night Leigh finds herself talking to the doll and decides to name her “Angel.” Cleave calls to wish her a happy birthday but of course won’t be able to see her for a while. He also tells her that a present is coming for her and that Mildred picked it out. Leigh is definitely feeling her father slip further and further away from her.

While Heaven is still my favorite character of this series, I really enjoy Leigh’s voice and POV. It’s no wonder she fled to the Willies. Tony and Jillian are both awful and damned if Cleave isn’t becoming a huge disappointment as well.

Next, Leigh’s Big Birthday Bash & Tony reaches his full creepy potential.





VCA Recaps: Web of Dreams Part 2

Just like in my previous VCA recaps, these will be full of SPOILERS so do not continue if you do not want to be spoiled/haven’t read it. Thank you!

Part 1 here.

This recap will cover Chapters 6–11.

Jillian doesn’t come home for hours. When she finally does, she arrives looking perfect and happy. She chides Leigh for being upset over the divorce and explains why she wasn’t happy with her father. All shallow reasons like how much older he is, how cooped up she feels on board, how much she is missing out on society, etc.

When Leigh lets her know that she saw the invitations, Jillian breaks the news that she is indeed getting married—and to Tony Tatterton. On Christmas, and they are all going to be living at Farthy. Thinking back to when I was twelve, that is definitely not an easy thing for Leigh to swallow.

Jillian pleads with Leigh to be her “best friend” from now on. She isn’t saying it out loud but basically she’s over being a mother. Then, you know, she has to go into how she fell in love with Tony, because you totally should tell your daughter all about it. She claims they didn’t have an affair but she is such a liar about everything else that I don’t really believe her about that.

Also, Jillian makes her promise to never tell Tony her real age. Cleave arrives later on and tells Leigh that he has a room at the Hilton when she asks about where he will be staying. Jillian takes Cleave into his office for a private talk. Leigh is upset when Cleave later leaves without saying goodbye. Poor girl.

Leigh later gets a letter from Raymond, one of the boys she met on the cruise and shows the letter off at school. Thanksgiving arrives and Jillian takes Leigh to Farthy to celebrate it with Tony, Troy, and important friends of Tony’s. Two weeks later, Leigh and Jillian return to Farthy for a wedding rehearsal. Jillian regrets inviting some of her older friends and voices this out loud to Leigh.

Once at Farthy, Troy is excited to show off a snowman he has made out front. Tony shows Leigh her new rooms, where she will be getting ready for the rehearsal as well as living from now on. The rooms are beautiful but Leigh worries about betraying her father’s love. Tony helps her zip up her dress when she comes out looking for her mother.

After the rehearsal is over, Leigh lets Troy drag her into the maze to find hedge trimmings for his snowman. He shows her the cottage at the end and demonstrates that he knows how to make a fire. He is a very mature four year old. They stay long enough for the snow to cover their tracks and can’t find their way back through the maze again.

Leigh and Troy are frozen by the time they are found. Troy is whisked off to a bath and Tony suggests Jillian do the same for Leigh. Jillian is upset over Leigh embarrassing her. Even Tony notices how unconcerned she is over Leigh shivering and helps her up to her new bathroom.

He runs her a hot bath and convinces her to let him help undress her down to her underwear. Once she’s in the bath, he comes in with a robe and she feels very uncomfortable, hoping he can’t see anything. He even dips his fingers into the bathwater.

A bit later, Jillian storms in to rant some more about how embarrassed she is about what Leigh did. Who knew getting lost in a maze during a snow storm was so embarrassing? When Leigh mentions that Troy wanted to get hedge trimmings, Jillian complains about how spoiled and undisciplined he is. She makes Leigh feel bad enough about what happened (right before her wedding!) to apologize.

Well…you should be. This wedding is the most important thing that has ever happened to me…or to you, young lady.”

Due to the snow, Jillian and Leigh stay over. Jillian talks to Leigh about how she will be having her own rooms even when she’s married because women need their privacy for their beauty routines and letting men see them makes them less mysterious.

Tony later brings Leigh dinner and says he hopes she will learn to love Farthy as much as he does. He also gets her to let him kiss her good night. Later, Jillian comes by to tell her that they will be leaving in the morning after breakfast. She also tells Leigh that she will help her see that all of their days from now on will be exciting.

On the way home in the morning, Jillian talks about her honeymoon and also about Winterhaven, the private girl school Tony is going to get Leigh enrolled in. Poor Leigh is just having everything taken from her. When she gets home, she has a letter from her father. It makes her sad.

Later on Jillian reveals that Jana, her mother, has agreed to come to the wedding and will probably arrive in a few hours. Indeed she does come a few hours later. The first thing Jana does is take Jillian into Cleave’s office to talk. The door is left a crack open so Leigh can hear everything.

First Jana bitches Jillian out over her marriage to Cleave. Leigh’s heart breaks when she hears her mother confess that she never loved his. It shatters when Jana reveals that Jillian got knocked up by a man named Chester Godwin. She asks Jillian if Cleave know that Leigh isn’t really his child.

Jana is disgusted at Jillian not only marrying a much younger man but also that she is lying about her age to him.

“Disgusting. Another life built on lies. I have a good mind to turn right around and head straight home, but I came and I’ll stay for Leigh’s sake. That poor child having to be dragged through one thing after another by her selfish, vain, foolish mother.”

Her heart broken, Leigh vows to never tell Cleave the truth and that he will always be her father anyway. She then thinks back to her mother telling her how nice girls didn’t have sex until they got married. Suddenly she realizes just how big of a hypocrite Jillian is.

Jana is impressed with Farthy when they take her to meet Tony, something that makes Jillian happy. The servants wait on her hand and foot.

The morning of the wedding arrive and Leigh is sad that they will be leaving their Boston house and the servants she has grown to love. Cleave has found them jobs on his liner at least.

They arrive at Farthy and it looks beautiful but of course Jillian complains about Troy’s snowman still being out front. Witch. The wedding proceeds and Leigh spends a lot of it wondering how much her mother’s oaths really mean since she had broken them before with her father.

Later Troy shows Leigh all of the wedding presents and sadly confesses that he is unhappy about the wedding because he knows Jillian doesn’t like him.

“She looks at me with growls in her eyes,” he said quickly.
“Growls? What’s growls?”
He growled like a dog.
“Oh.” I started to laugh, but saw he was very serious.

Leigh makes excuses that Jillian just isn’t used to little boys. Troy doesn’t seem very hopeful but is happy that Leigh is his sister and here with him now.

Later Jillian takes Leigh up to her suite to show her a prenuptial agreement between her and Tony. Leigh is confused by the need for it. Jillian calls her stupid and advises her to never trust a man. She tells Leigh that she is showing her this so she won’t worry about their future—no matter what, they’re rich! How very Corrine Foxworth of her.

Jana heads for the airport and back to Texas but before she goes, she invites Leigh to come stay with her if she isn’t happy. After, Tony and Jillian head off for their honeymoon, leaving Leigh with just the servants and Troy.

Leigh fills her hours with Troy. For Christmas he gifts her a ceramic horse that he made with a girl on it made to represent her. Leigh gets a heart shaped locket with a picture of her and her father inside from Cleave.

On New Years, Troy tries to say up until midnight but falls asleep. Cleave calls to wish Leigh a happy new year. Troy wakes up in the morning sick enough that his nanny takes him to the hospital. When she returns, she tells Leigh that Troy has pneumonia.

Leigh worries about Troy. Jillian comes home from her honeymoon some time later but doesn’t seem concerned at all about her new husband’s little brother. She is tired from her honeymoon, from her new husband’s energy levels, and needs to sleep. Leigh can’t wrap her head around Jillian not being at the hospital with Tony.

Later on Leigh goes to the hospital to check on Troy. Tony seems surprised and as the evening goes on, takes her to dinner. He complains about how little Jillian wanted to do on their honeymoon. When they get back to Farthy, Jillian is awake and annoyed that Leigh left.

Once Tony goes away, Jillian complains to Leigh about how tired Tony has made her with his energy. She even talks about their sex life.

“He makes love like he’s raping me,” she explained.

She pleads with Leigh to be her best friend and to help her keep Tony occupied by doing activities with him that she has no desire to do. That doing so will help him not need her so much. She tells Leigh that she will need to spend her weekends home with him. Leigh is very unsure about all of this but reluctantly agrees.

I didn’t know what to say. What was I agreeing to do?

Troy continues to get better. Jillian’s vanity gets worse and she takes even more time with her beauty routines. One evening Leigh overhears Tony and Jillian’s first spat. They are arguing about sex. Jillian is claiming that it is threatening her health but Tony calls out bullshit on that.

When Leigh goes in to talk to her mother after, Jillian reminds her of her promise to keep Tony occupied. Leigh protests that Tony won’t want to be with her and that he married Jillian so that must mean he wants to be with her. Jillian says he just needs companionship.

Leigh also discovers that Jillian won’t be going with her to school in the morning—Tony will. She suspects that Jillian doesn’t want everyone to see that she has a daughter almost as old as she wants them to think she is.

In the morning Leigh wakes to find Tony standing and staring down at her.

After breakfast, they leave for Winterhaven. Jillian is still in her bed.

I’m still enjoying the re-read and it is definitely looking like Jillian is grooming Leigh to be Tony’s plaything. Or is it just me?

Anyway, next Leigh goes to Winterhaven and unlike her future daughter, makes a friend easily.