VCA Recaps: Dawn Part 3


On to Part 3!


Again, this recap will contain SPOILERS so read at your OWN risk!

Part 1 | Part 2


This recap will consist of Chapter 4.


At the end of the school day, Dawn catches up with Jimmy in the lobby. He’s unhappy that his math teacher considers him too far behind to catch up and Dawn chastises him about how much school he used to miss. Jimmy says he doesn’t care but Dawn can tell it bothers him. They go to their father’s office to wait for him.


Jimmy asks Dawn about who ruined her clothes but Dawn lies, adding to just forget about it. He goes on a tirade about how awful the other kids are before he starts asking questions about Philip Cutler.


“Funny, how he got so friendly so fast.” Jimmy’s eyes grew small as his mind worked overtime.



As Dawn moons over Philip, Jimmy announces that he doesn’t trust him and suspects he may be part of some kind of prank.


“Oh, that can’t be true, Jimmy. He’s too nice to do anything like that!” I cried a little too desperately.



Ormand chooses to enter the office at that moment and when he asks about the kids’ days, they decide to keep quiet about what happened to Dawn. Dawn notices that he really seems to like his new job, too.


They go home and Sally Jean is curled up with Fern in the bedroom. While Ormand and Jimmy go out to bring back some ice cream for dessert, Sally Jean wakes up and Dawn notices how sick she looks. Dawn asks her if she’s seen a doctor and of course Sally Jean hasn’t, but she has something better–a natural tonic!


Dawn tells her about school aside from the incident and the Cutler siblings. She notices her mother having some chest pains. Dawn threatens to stay home from school until she gets better. Sally Jean replies that she will just get sicker from being upset about that.


“You belong in school, Dawn. You deserve this chance.”


I love that Dawn’s parents at least acknowledge the importance of a good education.



Sally Jean goes on to say how Dawn needs to mix in with the rich kids and how she’s just as good as they are. She is so adamant about Dawn deserving the same things as the rich kids that she squeezes her hand too tightly. When Dawn talks to her father about her mother’s illness, Sally Jean finally agrees to see a doctor if her tonic doesn’t work.


The next day Philip meets Dawn at her locker to ask her if she’ll let him take her for a ride today. He sure is persistent. When she asks where to, he tells her that he has a special spot that he likes to go to but has never taken anyone to before because he’s never met anyone he thought would appreciate it until now.



Dawn wants to go but feels like she is betraying someone. Philip walks her to class and continues to persuade her to go for the ride.


“I’m not asking you to marry me. Not yet, anyway,” he added.


Dawn’s heart flutters because she has apparently been imaging their married life together, complete with her family living with them at the Cutler’s Cove hotel and Clara Sue becoming a chambermaid.


“I’ll be after you all day,” Philip promises regarding the ride.


Maybe Philip thinks that’s cute or something but I’m like:



Louise is staring when Dawn enters the classroom. Dawn tells her how Philip wants to take her for a ride after school but is worried that Clara Sue put him up to it. Louise doesn’t think so since Clara Sue is apparently mad at him for even talking to Dawn but she warns her not to go.


When Dawn goes to her classes,  she sees Philip wave and ask “Well?” After she sits down in her math class, he pops his head into the door and raises his eyebrows. Dawn laughs when he leaves. OK, that is sorta cute. But still kinda creepy.


Dawn later runs into Clara Sue, who is quick to tell Dawn that Mr. Moore is also considering her for the solo. When Dawn wishes her good luck, Clara Sue is nasty about it, calling her a charity case. Dawn defends herself but Clara Sue continues, saying how she is an outsider, white trash from the wrong side of the tracks.


When Dawn adds that Philip really does like her, Clara Sue says she bets he does—that he likes to make girls like Dawn into mothers once a month.



At lunch Philip persuades Jimmy to join the basketball team. Philip gets mad when Dawn tells him that his sister has been warning her against spending time with him. When Dawn pleads with him not to talk to her about it, he tells her he won’t if she goes for a ride with him. Dawn relents, as long as her father is OK with it.


Dawn brings her guitar to music class and plays for Mr. Moore. He tells her that she plays well for someone without any formal lessons. When Dawn admits that one of her dreams is to learn the piano and have one of her own (weird how Dawn’s attraction to music is never mentioned until she gets to this fancy school?), he agrees to teach her how to play in exchange for playing the flute in the school orchestra.


After school, Dawn tells Jimmy to tell their father that she’s going for a ride with Philip even though Jimmy isn’t happy about it. Philip has a “pretty red car with soft furry white sheepskin covers on the seats.” It was a birthday gift from his grandmother, something that Dawn just can’t seem to fathom.


Philip takes Dawn to a deserted road that he claims he found while out driving until they are on top of a hill that overlooks a river. Smooth. Philip tells her that it’s even prettier at night, asking her if she thinks he’ll ever be able to get her out then. Next he starts putting the moves on her, telling her what a pretty girl she is, feigning his surprise over her not having many boyfriends, and the weirdest compliment about how tiny her nose is. He then proceeds to kiss her tiny nose!



One of his hands settles on her knee and of course she tells a tingle go up her thigh.


“Dawn,” he whispered softly in my ear. “Dawn, I just love saying your name. You know what I did this morning? I got up with the sunrise just so I could see the dawn.”


Oh, brother.



Dawn tells him he didn’t but he assures her he did not just with his words but with a deep kiss. She is surprised by all of the feelings going on inside her so Philip takes that as the okay to start fondling her. Dawn pushes him away, unable to help all the warnings, especially from Clara Sue, coming back to her mind.


“Easy,” he said quickly. “I’m not going to hurt you.”


Promises, promises. He is surprised when she admits she’s never been touched like that before and tells her that she’s been missing out and that there is nothing to be afraid of.


“Just relax. You don’t want to be the only girl your age at Emerson Peabody who’s never been kissed and touched like this, do you? I’ll do it slowly, okay?”


Where is Jimmy when you need him?



Anyway, Philip continues to try and feel Dawn up wherever he can get away with until she has had too much. Pushing him away, Dawn tells him she has to go help her mother with dinner. Philip asks her if she has another boyfriend already and if she’ll come back one night.


Ugh. Philip is such slime. Dawn agrees that she will and Philip says he’ll let her slip out of his hands this time–haha, har har, not wanting to consent is so cute!



Then he proceeds to tell her that he likes that she’s shy, anyway. Being new to men and not wanting to go too far the first time is apparently being “shy.” I just can’t with Philip Cutler. He pleads with her to let him teach her things and she agrees–sadly a mistake that he will never let her forget.


Philip thankfully drives her home. Ashamed, Dawn warns him that they don’t live in a nice section of town but that it’s temporary until her father can find something better. When Dawn mentions how much she’s had to travel, he tells her that he’s done some traveling but doesn’t get to do it like other kids he knows. He has to help out at his family’s hotel instead of going to Europe. He complains that one day he’ll be expected to run it, too.



When Philip asks about Dawn’s past, she embellishes on what she does know–that her parents’ family are from Georgia and live on a farm–and makes it seem like a wonderful place that she was happy at. She pretends that she got her musical talent from her harmonica playing grandfather (who she’s never met). Poor girl.


Philip says he doesn’t remember his grandfather and isn’t too close with his grandmother. Dawn begins to feel bad about telling him stories when he promises her that she’s the first girl he’s ever driven home. When he parks, they kiss and he cops another feel. Ugh.


“You taste real good, Dawn. You’re going to let me take you for another ride soon, right?”



Dawn agrees and when Philip asks for her number, she has to admit that they don’t have a phone–yet. Her parents are waiting for her in the kitchen and they aren’t happy about her going off for a ride with Philip. She is forbidden from any future rides. Ormand then admits that he isn’t as crazy about his job as he first was, either–foreshadowing!


That night in bed Jimmy assures Dawn that he didn’t do anything to get their parents mad about her and Philip. He admits that he isn’t too upset about her not being able to go for anymore rides with him, though. He looks at her and point blank tells her that rich kids are spoiled and always get what they want.



Dawn tries to defend rich people by saying poor people can be bad too but Jimmy says at least poor people have an excuse. He tells her to be careful regarding Philip. Dawn has trouble sleeping because she’s so upset over not being able to go out with Philip again. It’s been two days, girl…you’ll be okay.


Anyway, she begins to fantasize about her and Philip back on the hill and things feel so vivid that she moans out loud. Jimmy is still awake and there’s an awkward moment.



A lot happened in Chapter 4 so I’m going to end things here. Next, Dawn has to tell Philip to cool things and she and Jimmy get into some school trouble!





VCA Recaps: Dawn Part 2


On to Part 2!


Again, this recap will contain SPOILERS so read at your OWN risk!

To read Part 1, go here.

This recap will consist of chapters 2 & 3.


During the first week of Sally Jean’s final month of pregnancy, she screams for Dawn to call for an ambulance. Jimmy hurries out to the pay phone on the corner to call. Dawn is worried, especially because her mother begins to look sickly. The ambulance comes and they cart Sally Jean away. Jimmy and Dawn have to call their father and go catch a bus to go to the hospital.


They get there and the baby is breech so the doctors have to turn it around before it can come out. Ormand goes with the doctor.


“It’s stupid,” Jimmy suddenly muttered, “stupid to have a baby now.”

“Don’t say that, Jimmy,” I chided. His words made my own fears crash in upon me like waves.

“Well, I don’t want a baby who threatens Momma’s life, and I don’t want a baby who’ll make our lives more miserable,” he snapped.


I do not blame Jimmy in the slightest. Ormand returns and the three of them sit waiting (no father allowed in the birthing room?) until the doctor comes to congratulate them on their new family member, a seven pound baby girl! The doctor warns Ormand that his wife had a difficult pregnancy and that they are building her blood back up.


Ormand thanks him and they all go to gaze at Baby Longchamp. Dawn is disappointed that the baby has their mother and Jimmy’s black hair and no freckles. It takes Sally Jean a long time to recuperate once she gets home. The baby girl is named Fern. No explanation is given for her name like Dawn’s was.


With Sally Jean being so weak, it’s up to Dawn to do a lot of the caregiving for Fern. Jimmy complains every time she has to disturb him to care for her. Their father’s moods get worse, too, making Dawn afraid that he might abandon them. Ormand Longchamp, father of the year.

Dawn expresses her worries about her mother’s declining health to Ormand. For whatever reason, Sally Jean won’t go see a doctor. Dawn suggests that they sell their family heirloom, a string of pearls they have, but Ormand reminds Dawn that Sally Jean would rather die than do that. Well then.


There’s a moment where Dawn thinks Jimmy is asleep so she gets dressed near him only to catch him watching. Geez, Jimmy, ever learned to avert your eyes? Then again, Dawn just stands there, intrigued by his gaze.


Sally Jean finally gets a part time gig cleaning even though her health is no better. One afternoon Ormand comes home early to tell everyone that the garage is being sold and that he has a better job now. Also,


“You two are gonna go to one of the finest schools in the South and it ain’t gonna cost us nothing.”


See, Ormand is going to be a “maintenance supervisor” at a fancy private school and part of the deal is for his kids to go tuition free. Dawn is awed but Jimmy hates the idea from the start, knowing that they will stick out. The fancy school has a pretentious name of Emerson Peabody.


“Emerson Peabody? What kind of name is that for a school? I ain’t going to to no school named Emerson Peabody,” Jimmy said.


I don’t blame him. Jimmy and Ormand get into it again but are interrupted by Sally Jean’s return home. She has a coughing fit that scares Dawn. But she’s very happy when she hears the news. Jimmy knows that he and Dawn are never going to fit in with all of those rich kids but Dawn tries to be optimistic about it.


A week later, Dawn picks out her best dress and pleads with Jimmy to wear his nicest outfit as well. They have to get up early to ride with their father across town to Emerson Peabody. The school is described in short but impressive detail–for a VCA novel, anyway.


Right away the kids have to meet with the principal, Mrs. Turnbell, who expects nothing but perfect behavior from the two of them. It’s clear that she is not at all happy with this arrangement. She isn’t very kind to Mr. Longchamp either. He is a lowly janitor, after all. She also seems to think Dawn has a strange name and refuses to call Jimmy anything other than James.


She rubs in the fact that they are getting in for free while other student have to pay so much money for the privilege to go there. Blah, blah, blah. Jimmy seems even more sour about Emerson Peabody now.


“Jimmy? Didn’tcha hear? It’s James. We’re in for it now.”


Dawn soon sees just how rich the other students are in their expensive clothes. The comparison of that to the girls at Winterhaven in the Casteel series is interesting. Dawn is starting the year as a sophomore and immediately clicks with a friendly be-speckled redhead named Louise. Louise talks a lot and soon Dawn knows a ton about her.


Dawn and Louise both have a gym class together. Dawn makes a great impression by naively ratting out a girl named Clara Sue Cutler for having a smoking cigarette inside of her locker. She yells at Dawn for ratting her out once the gym teacher has left the locker room and all of the other girls, including Louise, turn against her. I kind of can’t blame Clara Sue for being upset.


After class, Dawn is the last one showering and discovers that all of her clothes have been thrown into a toilet–and there’s urine in it. Even though I kinda felt bad for Clara Sue, this is pretty low. Dawn has no choice but to let her clothes be washed and wear her gym uniform for the rest of the day.


“But…everyone will laugh at me.”



If this was a Stephen King novel, there would be a much different ending for this book. Everyone finds Dawn’s uniform amusing (really?) and Jimmy is pissed when he finds out. To make matters worse, Mrs. Turnbell calls Dawn into her office to scold her for making enemies so soon and for being so classless as to wear her gym uniform to classes. Dawn is ordered to go wait for her clothes to dry, even though her dress comes out super wrinkled.


Louise later goes over to Dawn to tell her how sorry she is about what happened and how she had no part in it. She tells Dawn that she should have warned her about Clara Sue, who can make others do whatever she wants. They go into the cafeteria and Dawn decides to go over to Clara Sue’s table and tell her just what she thinks of her.

Clara Sue isn’t troubled by this at all and acts like they were just hazing her into the school or something. She invites Dawn and Louise to sit with them and asks Dawn about herself. All of the girls are baffled when they discover that Dawn has brought her lunch from home and has money for milk. Clara Sue laughs when Dawn tells her that her father is the janitor and that she and her brother get to go to Emerson Peabody for free despite them being poor. Dawn really needs to learn when to shut up.

Even this is too much for Louise to learn, who makes a flimsy excuse to leave the table. Clara Sue and her minions leave as well. Dawn glares at them and refuses to let them intimidate her. Thank God for that, at least.  Someone asks if there are any free seats and Dawn looks up at the most handsomest boy she’s ever seen. The boy introduces himself as Philip Cutler–Clara Sue’s older brother. When Dawn is hesitant, she admits all that Clara Sue has done and Philip apologizes for it.


Philip is in eleventh grade and just got his driver’s license. He asks Dawn if she would go for a ride with him after school. That escalated fast.


“I’ll show you the sights,” he added, winking.

Oh, I’m sure he will. Dawn has to decline because of her father and responsibilities at home. Dawn learns that Philip lives in the dorms but is from Virginia Beach and that his family owns the Cutler’s Cove Hotel near there. Dawn is impressed. She tells Philip about her father’s occupation but he’s unfazed. Jimmy then comes in and joins them, unhappy about everything.


Introductions are made before Jimmy goes to get his milk. Philip heaps sappy compliments on Dawn before his two friends come over to join them. After lunch, Philip walks Dawn to her music class and tells her more about himself. He asks if she will think about letting him take her for a ride tomorrow. When she notices Clara Sue watching, Dawn loudly says that she’ll think about it.


Dawn’s music teacher, Mr. Moore, is impressed with her music scales and muses aloud that he may have found their next solo singer for their upcoming concert. He’s impressed when Dawn admits that she has been teaching herself the guitar and asks her to bring it in the next day. He is the only teacher who seems to go out of his way to be kind to her.


Louise is waiting for Dawn after class, seeming jealous about Philip Cutler sitting with her at lunch. She warns her that Philip has a bad reputation but Dawn tells her that people should decide about other people for themselves. Louise apologizes for leaving Dawn at lunch and asks if she can join her tomorrow. Dawn is aloof about it, still hurt at the betrayal.


Louise tells Dawn that Clara Sue is going to be even more pissed when she hears about what Mr. Moore said because she sung the solo at last year’s concert and thinks she’s going to do the same this year as well. Dawn just can’t seem to catch a break!


Next, more school and boy drama!



VCA Recaps: Dawn Part 1


Last year I did a series of V.C. Andrews recaps for the last three books in the Casteel series. It was so much fun that I decided I wanted to do that again this year. The original idea came from the snarky Flowers in the Attic, My Sweet Audrina, and first two Casteel book recaps I saw here.

I can’t remember when I last visited the Cutler series but I do remember most of the major plot points. It will be interesting to revisit this world as a much older reader, though. I’m pretty sure I haven’t read these since I was in college.

These recaps are filled with SPOILERS so read at your own risk! These are more for longtime VCA fans though anyone is welcome to read!

Anyways, I present to you… Dawn! This recap will cover the first chapter.


First off, you have to admire the art that went into this cover. Is that red building supposed to be the hotel, though? A hotel with a weird flame tree and fence? Hmm. Here’s the stepback:

Now, the entire Cutler series was written by Andrew Neiderman, V.C. Andrew’s ghostwriter. Supposedly he wrote the series based on notes of hers. I’m not sure how true all of that is but I do remember this being one of the better ghostwritten series.


Here’s how the book opens: Momma once told me that she and Daddy named me Dawn because I was born at the break of day. That was the first of a thousand lies Momma and Daddy would tell me and my brother Jimmy. Of course, we wouldn’t know they were lies, not for a long time, not until the day they came to take us away.


One hell of an opening!




The story begins with Dawn Longchamp (fourteen) waking to the sounds of dresser drawers opening in another room. She turns to her sixteen-year-old brother, Jimmy, who sleeps in the same bed as she does to wake him but he’s already awake. Okay, already getting some Flowers in the Attic vibes here. Dawn asks Jimmy what is going on and he bemoans that they were going to get a puppy and plant a garden.


So apparently they are leaving and for whatever reason this is a surprise to Dawn. Jimmy tells her that their father got home early from work looking frenzied before he and their mother began to pack. And I guess Jimmy just went to sit on the bed while Dawn slept or something?


Jimmy says they might as well get up before their parents come tell them to and proceeds to get dressed. Dawn just lays there and watches him. Riight. She then begins to think of how her family is always moving, never staying settled for long. She then decides to get up and as she does, her nightgown dips low enough to reveal her bosom and she catches Jimmy staring at her. Oh Lord.



Embarrassed, Dawn fixes her nightgown and thinks about how she’s never told anyone that she and Jimmy sleep in the same bed because of how embarrassing it is. Their family is poor so they have to always share a bed. Dawn gets up, shivering at how cold the room is, and has the sense to go get dressed in the bathroom.

After that, she goes to pack right before her parents come out of their room with their own suitcases in tow. Dawn idly asks why they have to always travel at night and her daddy says it’s the best time to do it, glaring at her. Relax, Daddy. Ormand Longchamp is then described as being handsome with sleek dark brown hair and dark coal eyes.


“When the day came that I fell in love and decided to marry, I hoped my husband would be just as handsome as Daddy.”


Oh, you just wait, Dawn. Anyway, Dawn is ordered to help her mother pack up kitchen stuff and Jimmy begins to take the bags to the car. Jimmy is described as looking like his father in terms of his body and Dawn describes herself as having “China doll features” and not looking like anyone in the immediate family. They also don’t have many photos of family. The one photo they have is of the mother, Sally Jean, when she was younger and “fresh” looking.


Dawn figures all of the photos must have gotten lost over the years during their many moves. As precious as her mother’s photo seems to be, this seems unlikely but anyway. Momma and Jimmy are described as looking alike in their features–black hair, dark eyes, bronze complexions, and beautiful white teeth. Dawn has blond hair and freckles–which she pointedly says no one in her family has.


Dawn for whatever reason thinks of how her parents told them about her and Jimmy’s births. Dawn had apparently been born on the road before–you know–dawn. Oh, and the birds were singing. This fact will be very important later on. Dawn’s family is really superstitious, or at least her mother really is, and believes whatever a woman sees while giving birth will be what characteristics her child has.


“The worst thing was to have a mouse or a rat in the house when a woman was pregnant,” Momma said.

“What would happen, Momma?” I asked, filled with wonder.

“The child would be sneaky, cowardly.”


…right. Anyway, Dawn thinks to how she knows so little about her parents family aside that they were both brought up on small, poor farms in Georgia. There apparently wasn’t enough room for Ormand and Sally Jean Longchamp there once they married so they began their travels.


Dawn helps her mother pack up the kitchen, both of them sad about it. Jimmy lingers in the doorway to watch and is both sad and angry before Daddy comes in to make them hurry up. Dawn thinks of how fidgety her father is, how he likes to  frequent bars, and his strange, sulky moods. Her daddy finally tells them that it’s time to get going and he glares at Dawn as if it’s her fault. Foreshadowing! Sort of. Even Dawn is baffled by the glare.

The family heads on to the car to move onto their next location. The kids are surprised to learn that their next destination is Richmond, Virginia. Their father has a job waiting for him at a garage there and their mother is sure she can get a chambermaid position. They already have somewhere to live as well so Dawn knows that her father must have been planning this. This makes me wonder exactly where they stayed when they moved in the past. Were all of the other moves spur of the moment?


The Longchamps are so poor that they can only afford a one bedroom apartment, meaning Dawn and Jimmy will have to share a room and a sofa bed. This leads Dawn into thoughts about how they both get embarrassed when Jimmy accidentally touched her “where he wasn’t supposed to.” Dawn wishes that she could be like other girls her age with her own bed and privacy. This is so sad. The apartment is so bad to Jimmy that he remarks that he would rather sleep in the street.


A few months pass and one afternoon, Dawn’s mother comes home from work much earlier than usual. Dawn is hoping that her mother would bring something else for dinner because all they were down to now were leftovers. But their mother comes in crying and running to the bedroom and dinner is forgotten.


Dawn and Jimmy go to comfort her and find out what happened. Jimmy asks their mother if she lost her job and while she says that she didn’t, she admits that she won’t have it much longer. She breaks the news that she is going to have a baby. Sally Jean went to the doctor earlier that day and discovered she’s more than four months along but ignored the signs. Considering both of her children are teenagers, I can see that being plausible. Poor woman probably thought her periods had finally stopped.


Sally Jean keeps crying and says she is too old to have a baby. Dawn is worried and Jimmy is angry at their father because apparently it’s all his fault this happened. Dawn later finds him outside angrily throwing a ball against the wall in the alley.


“One thing we definitely don’t need right now if another child in the house. Look at what we’re eating for dinner tonight!” Jimmy yells.


I don’t even want to know what’s for dinner. A can of beans split between the four of them, maybe? Jimmy continues to go on about the things that a baby will need. Dawn tries to understand how this could have happened and Jimmy has to tell her that sex doesn’t always make a baby. Awkward.


“You’ll have to ask Momma about it. I don’t know all the details,” Jimmy said quickly, but I knew he did.


Ormand comes home and learns the news. He and Jimmy get into it before Ormand leaves the house, probably to frequent a bar and spend money they need on himself. I think I can see why Jimmy blames him for so much now. Oh, and apparently they are having grits and black-eyed peas for dinner. Jimmy is very unhappy about it.


Dawn gets to worrying about her dad and decides to go to the bar to get him later on. And of course, he’s lost track of how much he’s spent.


“I don’t like you going in a place like that. You’re smarter and better than the rest of us, Dawn. You deserve better,” Dawn’s father says.


Of course Dawn protests that she isn’t better than anyone but if you know the twist, you know exactly what Ormand means.


Jimmy is surprised that Dawn went to get their father. Before they go to sleep, they can hear their parents having sex in the other room. Dawn is kind of curious and terrified about it considering her mother’s condition. She asks Jimmy questions about it and he’s obviously very embarrassed because he keeps dodging them and finally tells her to shut up. Then Dawn’s leg accidentally grazes his and he pulls away so far he’s about to fall off of the sofa bed.


Pretty eventful first chapter–it’s 23 pages long!


Next, the Longchamps have a new addition to their family, Ormand gets a better job, and the kids get a once in a chance lifetime because of it!


Birthday Book Haul 2017

Apologies for the hiatus. It’s been a bit of a crazy month. My birthday was this month so I obviously bought myself some books.

I got The Chemist from my library’s outlet store. The top four books were from Book Outlet. Tiny Pretty Things, The Merciless 2, Get Even, & Partials. The rest came from my local used book store–all of these were about $4 because I took in some old books for store credit.  Two Animorphs, Just After Sunset, Dead White, The Unwelcomed Child, The Snow, Surrogate Child, A Gift of Magic, and Summer of Fear (which I already had a copy of but I liked this cover better and am planning to send the other to someone).


I got the Goosebumps book from Ebay so I can do the Goosebumps-along that Richard @ Richard’s Book Nook is hosting again this year. Join us! This Star Won’t Go Out, All the Light That We Cannot See, and Dumplin’ came from my local Goodwill.

So that’s a total of 18 books for my birthday, which is perfect since it landed on the 18th! Complete coincidence!


I took in about 15 books for store credit so at least I got rid of some of my collection. I probably won’t read any of these this year except for the Goosebumps book. Still, I feel like I’ve done better with book buying this year than I did in 2016.


What books have you bought lately?


Books in June 2017

For 2017, I have challenged myself to read 80 books. In June, I read five.


New Favorite: Gwendy’s Button Box by Stephen King & Richard Chizmar

Classic: The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn by Mark Twain

Old Favorites (Re-Reads): My Sweet Audrina by V.C. Andrews

June was a slower reading month but I still enjoyed everything I read. Hoping to get a little more read next month. Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince was a re-read but since it was my least favorite of the series (still gave it 4 stars), I decided it didn’t count as a favorite.


My new favorite read for June … and also for 2017 so far. It was hard to put down!

Also ❤

My classic read for the month. I enjoyed this one even more than Tom Sawyer.

Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince is my least favorite of the series so far but I still enjoyed it.


And My Sweet Audrina managed to make me love it even more this time around. It’s one seriously messed up story with even more messed up characters, but I can’t help it. I love it!

So what did you read in June and what were your favorites? How many books are you tackling for 2017?


Books in May 2017

For 2017, I have challenged myself to read 80 books. In May, I read six.


New Favorite: The Forbidden Wish by Jessica Khoury

Classic: Dandelion Wine by Ray Bradbury

Old Favorites (Re-Reads): Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix by J.K. Rowling & Web of Dreams by V.C. Andrews.

I had a great reading month. I enjoyed everything I read so I decided not to pick a least liked for this month.



My new favorite read for May.

My classic read for the month.

Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix is my favorite of the series so far. It was my favorite out of all of them years ago so I guess we’ll see if that is still true over the next few months!

Web of Dreams is definitely one of my favorite ghostwritten VCA books. I did a recap for it here.

So what did you read in May and what were your favorites? How many books are you tackling for 2017?


VCA Recaps: Web of Dreams Part 5 (Final)

Just like in my previous VCA recaps, these will be full of SPOILERS so do not continue if you do not want to be spoiled/haven’t read it. Thank you!


Part 1 here.

This recap will cover Chapters 18—Epilogue.

Leigh bathes, dresses, and joins everyone for dinner. She is obviously not feeling it but of course Jillian ignores her lack of enthusiasm and relishes in slamming some of the dieters she met at her “wonder spa.”

Jillian tells Leigh that she has some of the things from Switzerland in another room and that she wants her to see them. Tony pulls Leigh back for a moment. He tells her that he doesn’t harbor any resentment toward her for what she said to Jillian and how they both understand how Leigh is “literally exploding into womanhood.”

Leigh tells him that eventually her mother will believe her. Poor thing. Tony goes on about teenage girls, blah blah blah. Leigh calls him despicable and goes to see her mother’s things. Of course Jillian continues to drone on about the stupid spa. Leigh attempts to talk to her mother again but gives up when Jillian starts to complain about her “starting all that again.” Jillian is even worse than Tony.

Jillian gives Leigh a watch that Leigh couldn’t care less about. Leigh continues to attempt to talk to her mother but eventually gives up and retreats into herself. She even ignores Jennifer and Joshua’s phone calls. Leigh begins to find solitude in nature.

Jillian returns to her social life and Tony keeps his distance from Leigh. In July he goes off to Europe. When Cleave calls, Leigh basically begs him to come see her, and without Mildred. Of course Cleave can’t leave his precious Mildred. I’m pretty sure he knows the truth about Leigh’s paternity somehow. Maybe Jillian told him so Leigh would have no one.

Still, Leigh looks forward to seeing her father even with Mildred only to get stood up—there’s an emergency on one of the liners. She runs up to her room and starts feeling bad. In the morning she throws up and realizes with horror that she’s missed her period. She knows she’s pregnant.

She waits a few more days but the sickness doesn’t go away. Finally she goes to Jillian to tell her the news, sure that it will make her believe her this time! Poor Leigh. Jillian seems skeptical at first and then blames Leigh for seducing her husband.

Jillian insists that Leigh must be jealous of her and that she tried so hard to bring her up right, and that GOOD GIRLS DON’T GO ALL THE WAY! Just like Jillian didn’t, right? She’s such a hypocrite! Leigh finally calls her out on it too, revealing that she overheard Jana discussing Leigh’s real father.

Of course Jillian refuses to confess to it.

“How dare you shout at me like this! I’m your mother.”

“No, you’re not. I have no mother and I have no father. You thought you could have it all, didn’t you? Only the finest! A handsome young husband, a luxurious estate, a designer wardrobe, and a SPECIALLY SELECTED MISTRESS FOR YOUR OWN HUSBAND!”

Damn, girl. She’s not finished though.

“Tell me, Momma, when did you first get the idea? On your honeymoon? When you returned to Farthy? When did you realize that your beauty wouldn’t last forever and would start FADING! That’s right, fading! With each passing day you grow older and older, Momma. But you’ve always known that, deep in your heart of hearts. I CAN’T STAND YOU ANYMORE! You don’t care about anything but yourself and your precious face. Well let me tell you something, Jillian Tatterton, the game is OVER! You’re going to be a GRANDMOTHER and the only person you have to blame is YOURSELF!”

Ah, I think Jillian’s revulsion to the word “grandmother” back in earlier books may have something to do with Leigh finally calling her out on her shit.

These are the last words Leigh says to Jillian as she returns to her suite and starts packing. She also takes Angel with her. Leigh decides that she’ll go to her grandmother since she knows what Jillian is really like. She also takes two hundred dollars from Tony’s office. Really, it’s the least he can do.

She goes outside to find Miles polishing the car and pretends that she has an appointment and that Jillian must have forgotten to notify anyone. Before they can leave, Leigh spots Troy out with his nurse and knows she must say goodbye.

They are just on their way back from the beach and Troy is excited to show Leigh a huge conch shell he found. Leigh tells him that she has to leave and won’t be back for a while. She promises that somehow, someway, she’ll be back. While this isn’t exactly true, I suppose Heaven returning to Farthy later on sort of fulfills her promise.

Troy insists that Leigh take the shell with her. Miles drops Leigh off at the train station and she discovers the train will have to make a stop in Atlanta before it goes all the way to Texas. She takes the train right away.

The next day the train stops in Atlanta and Leigh stays at the station counting what little money she has left. Suddenly someone says that they bet they can turn one of her dollars into a five-dollar-bill. She turns and sees a young man, around seventeen or so. Luke Thomas Casteel.

Leigh is somewhat wary but lets him have one of her bills. She watches, amazed, as he turns it into a five-dollar-bill. He says he figures she needed it from the way she was counting her money. When she says she can’t take money from a stranger, he introduces himself.

The two get to talking and Leigh learns that Luke has a part-time job at the local circus. She also tells him the surface details of where she is from and where she is going. When he realizes Leigh means to stay at the station and has no where to go, he invites her to go to the circus with him.

She accepts and they have a good time. It’s almost like a first date. Luke also becomes more self conscious when Leigh questions him about drinking beer. Luke gives Leigh a quick kiss on the lips. After finishing a show, Leigh realizes that she is going to miss her train.

Luke tries his best to get her to the station on time but they still miss it. When he suggests she call her grandmother to let her know she will be late, Leigh breaks down crying and tells him the real reason she’s running away. Luke acts way more upset about it than Jillian’s pinky finger.

He rents her a motel room for the night with two beds and stays when she insists he enjoy the room as well. Luke plans to take her to the station in the morning. Leigh has a nightmare and Luke comforts her. They end up falling asleep in each other’s arms and Luke tells her that he wants to take care of her.

In the morning Luke insists that he meant what he said last night and asks her to marry him. While I do think Luke and Leigh’s relationship so far as been cute, this seems a bit drastic, even given Leigh’s situation. Still, this is the best version of Luke in all of the books.

Luke and Leigh go to the courthouse to get married with most of the circus people there as witnesses. Everyone seems happy about the marriage except for the fortune teller, who looks worried as Luke and Leigh drive away afterward.

Irony of ironies, Luke is the one to give Heaven her full name and he suggests it as he takes Leigh to the Willies. They stop for food and Leigh gets onto Luke about drinking again. She also sends her mother a postcard telling her that she has married Luke. She also says she hopes Jillian is happy (sincerely) and that Jillian will wish the same to her.

Luke explains about the rich people of Winnerow when they pass by the town. Leigh is shocked by the cabin that Luke finally arrives at and meets a younger Annie and Toby Casteel. Annie seems unsure about Leigh and her “softness.”

Everyone has a good laugh at Leigh’s reaction to an outhouse and Luke promises to build her a really nice one. He also promises that soon they will have their own home.

Leigh learns to adjust to life in the Willies and finds Annie to be very easy to talk to as she helps her around the house. Annie and Toby insist on Luke and Leigh having the bed because “all Casteels are made in beds” but Luke tells Leigh that they can wait until the baby has come. Luke really does seem to love her.

Luke’s drinking continues to be somewhat of a problem. Leigh considers getting money from her trust or reaching out to her dad for help but Luke has strong pride and insists that he will make their dreams come true without any help.

When Luke first takes Leigh to church, she sees how the townspeople treat them and pulls Luke to the front, a bold move that pleases Annie very much afterwards.

They all go to a party after and Leigh reflects on how it’s even better than her birthday party because everyone seems to be happy with one another. She notices Sarah Williams, Luke’s future wife, dancing with him and starts to get jealous. Luke insists that he only has eyes for her. We know that’s not true considering Sarah gave birth to Tom only a few months after Heaven arrived.

On Christmas Eve, Luke gives Leigh a wedding dress and veil for Angel. The weather is beginning to get colder. In February, Luke and Leigh are on one of their nightly walks when she starts to feel Heaven kick. She also feels some pain but is afraid to worry Luke.

Leigh tells him that she thinks it won’t be much longer and gets a good glimpse of the star studded night sky so she can “feel as if she’s falling asleep in Heaven” later. Foreshadowing…

That seems to be the last of Leigh’s logbook minus a letter from a private eye that Tony had hired who tells him that Leigh was found to be living in West Virginia and that she died in childbirth. He mentions that the baby, a girl, lived.

Which is a total plot hole unless Tony wanted his daughter to fall in love with his little brother? That seems too messed up even for Tony. Or did Jillian somehow get a hold of the letter and hide it from him?

Luke Casteel Jr. calls to Annie and she tells him about how she has been reading her grandmother’s journal. She imagines she is hearing Troy calling for Leigh and also the sound of Chopin as she and Luke leave Farthinggale Manor.

Overall I loved this one, though I feel like the whole discovery of the logbook makes little sense, causes plot holes, and honestly would have been better left out. You don’t have to have a journal to tell your story and I don’t believe a 12-13 year old would have left such a detailed account anyway. Still, loved it. My third favorite in the series.

I hope you have enjoyed this recap. Since the V.C. Andrews Project has already done a recap of My Sweet Audrina, I will probably skip doing that one though I may do one for the new sequel, Whitefern, which I hear is terrible. But I guess we’ll see!